No one deserves to fight alone. You are loved. God loves you. I don't care what the world says. I'm strong in my faith in God. The devil can try, but God always wins. If Jesus beat death one time, he can do it again. I see life as a big card game. You have to play your cards carefully. You mess up, you missed the jackpot, but don't do it over and over again. All you're doing is digging yourself a deeper hole. Reach out to someone. Ask for help. It's ok to admit defeat.