It’s rather tiring going through this every single day. I’ve almost become numb to it actually. Surprised he hasn’t tired himself out by now. He’s so persistent… I would’ve gone insane by now if it weren’t for this stupid little journal thing. For anyone seeing this I am H̶a̶t̶r̶e̶d̶ H̶e̶p̶h̶a̶e̶s̶t̶u̶s̶ Spade I keep forgetting my name. It is my name. I shouldn’t be letting it get to me. My name is Spade. I think. I’m starting to run out of options as of late. If this keeps going I’ll lose it. I don’t think I want to hurt anyone. Woah That’s a sentiment I haven’t had in years haha. I’m such a damn liar. …I should’ve much sooner… Even now I don’t know why I let Damon stop me that day. …You know a lot of people say if they met their past selves, they would hug them or something. …Knowing me I probably would’ve str@ngl3d him. …It was his fault anyways. I hate him. I hate everyone. I hate Hah ‘Don’t want to hurt anyone’ my —. The only way for me to get out of this is either me or M̶a̶l̶i̶c̶e̶ Eve dy!ng. I wouldn’t mind either at this point. But with how I am at the moment, it wouldn’t even be a fair fight. I don’t like unfair fights. They’re boring. What fun is dy!ng in less than 6 seconds? I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I don’t know why I’m still trying. I guess that stubborn part of me Stupid I’ll probably just have to wait until I finally lose my mind. Wait
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