And at the end, when I dont have any time for doing something I needed to do I start stressing myself. I try to force myself into studying or practising for my audition or something else but everytime I sit here and just stare at the paper infront of me. And suddenly I feel like I need water, then I get it. After a while I remember I need to text my friend back, then I go in the texting app but find myself hours later playing around with my phone. Or I randomly start to laugh or talk to mysel for someone who really can lock in and concentrate. Then I feel that they become distant because I disturb them. Or I start drawing, humming, even walking?!?!!? I need to do homework and I have many tests upcoming and I know too well I am going to stress myself about it! I am very tired of this. I dont want people seeing me like someone who just disturbs them. I just need someone who needs to understand me. Please tell me I am not the only one. I always have the feeling I need to study or do something but end up sitting! And in the last moment I always start to stress and have negative toughts in me. I am just so tired of this. I am already stressed with all this school stuff. But I dont even want to be good at maths or something like biology. I am interested in music and want to study or do something about music. Thats why I want to be a Kpop Idol! But I didnt even send my audtion yet and this just stresses me more when I remember it. Always when I am trying to enjoy something school just comes in my mind. But I am innterested in music and want to know more about it but I cant even work on something straight for 5 minutes. Please telll me I am not the only one and please tell me this is just a phase and I´ll be able to sit straight for 5 minutes and just focus.
Please give me some tips for how to focus. I tried everything. Nothing helps anymore.
