Horrible kids at my school, all of them... idiots. I feel like I'm going insane, I am getting insomnia from what happened that I had no control over. If you literally were to hold a gun up to my head I wouldn't care, I would probably tell you to just do it and kill me. Someone give me a reason to care anymore, I lie saying that I care and am fine. I started cutting for a while again. I just want to be alone, but idiots at school call me their 'Best Friend' even though I hate them with every fiber in my being. I don't even think that they are doing it because they mean it. I think that they are just doing it to annoy me. I've been running off of fumes for the past week, I have been seeing therapy to help with these issues but I leave feeling worse than when I entered. I honestly can't feel very much emotions towards others, I don't care at all anymore... I feel like I am loosing my sanity, I feel like I am going to end up hurting someone I care about someday. I am so scared. I don't want to repeat the story of Nightmare and Dream but in reality. I don't want to hurt my family. Can someone tell me a reason why I should continue posting my cringe on scratch, why I should even stay in general, please...
