click that flag please I've been trying to make this for a month, I've finally got to doing it. smol ketchup warning also please do not remix
Before I start I just wanna state a few of my beliefs: because I actually think very logically and rely on science and solid evidence, I am an atheist. I also do not believe in an afterlife, I do, however, believe in reincarnation. Now with that said; my problems have been here since the start. and by since the start I mean when I started drawing. My family is not the best and my dad does things I wish he didn't/ makes my cry myself to sleep. These problems have gotten worse since after my old dog, Roscoe, passed away. You could say I have depression; but I have no idea if I do or not, and social anxiety keeps me from talking to my parents and getting help. Because of my beliefs, my most cherished family member, Roscoe, is gone and I believe I'll never get to see him again. This breaks me. We now have three new dogs, and I do love one as much or even more then good old 'scoe. But it doesn't help. Most of the time I do not have contact with close friend who make me feel important. And that's why I'm so happy I'm "popular" here. But once again; that doesn't help. My social anxiety hurts me physically and mentally. I will actually get sick (not literally) before school over fear I forgot to do homework. And if I am able to get on the computer in the morning before school, I will get a large pain in my chest over fear of what notifications I may have. I don't know why I'm this way, but my anxiety also causes my to impulse-eat I'm not going to lie, I'm not the thinnest person, heck, you could call me chubby. But anxiety is what originally caused me to start over-eating. And my parents have noted this. They have forced me to work out and they're even forcing everyone in out family to go on a diet over the summer. An what's worse, my own parents have called me FAT. I would provide a picture to show I'm chubby; not fat, but I feel if you actually care, you'll believe me. I'm sorry but I have to get this out; and I can see Scratch removing this project because of both the PMV and this vent, but I don't care. As long as some people can see this is good enough. ***Thank you for reading***
