P L E A S E VIEW THIS PROJECT FROM PHOSPHORUS AND NOT ON SCRATCH. DEPENDING ON YOUR COMPUTER THE RHYTHM WILL GROSSLY LAG SO SAVE YOUR EARS FROM BLEEDING. IF YOU STILL WANNA READ THE DESCRIPTION OPEN A NEW TAB. *********https://phosphorus.github.io/#177356007********** Hey guys! It's been a while, hasn't it? 2018 has been pretty crazy so I apologize for my inactivity. Some personal things along with school kept me from making any projects, but after almost eight months of stress and procrastination, it's done. My 2 ⅔ year Scratchaversary, a long with my celebration of 1000 followers. I'm honestly astonished how I even made it this far on Scratch. This place, this website, it's like second nature to me. It's a place where I'm free to express myself, my passions, my interests with people all across the world. I think the beauty of this website is its community. Through my nearly 30-month experience on Scratch, I've met and talked to some of the nicest people on the internet. There are so many loving and welcoming users on this site, and that builds a strong bond that can never break. Every step of the way, I was surrounded by so much love from every Scratcher I met, whether they be casual followers or close friends. To everyone I've ever met on this site, to every person that's stuck up for me, been there for me every step of the way, I just wanna know that all of you sincerely mean the world to me. Just a simple "hello" on my profile is enough to brighten my entire day. So now, the explanation I've been saving all this time.... Why I took such a long hiatus in the first place. ______________________________________________________ It was January 2018. A new year had dawned and I was hopeful for the rest of my 8th grade year. The second semester had just started, and I was looking forward to see what 2018 had in store. And that's when reality hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like when you're playing a video game on Normal mode and suddenly mid-way it switchings to Expert. School became insanely more stressful. I was falling apart trying to keep my grades up, and I also started developing an unhealthy habit of extreme procrastination, even more severe than what I already had. I would post-pone my homework to literally half an hour before my bedtime. I had so little motivation to start or finish anything. My mental health took a brutal hit and I was just a mess. My family didn't make things better. Almost every week there was huge fight or argument. I was lucky if they went less than an hour without screaming at each other. This vicious cycle continued for months. I noticed I started getting more irritable, more annoyed at minor inconveniences. I would blow up over the smallest things. I was pretty much a younger female Zuko. Every waking minute I was so anxious. I tried coping with it by being extra peppy around my friends, it helped just enough for me to stay a bit sane. Out of all the things that happened this year, from dealing with my Spanish and English teachers to fighting over my grades with my mom, nothing can top what happened during the IB. So in my school district, there's an endorsed advanced program students can sign up for called IB, short for International Baccalaureate. They sent out flyers about the program, how it can look good on your college resume if you stay in throughout your high school years. My mom convinced me to apply since she said it could help me in my future, but as I was filling out the application, I started having second thoughts about if I could handle the work load. I asked my older brother if he had any friends that took IB, and he said it was a nightmare for them, which just fueled my worries. I told my mom about my doubts and she exploded on me. She said me even considering dropping out made her so disappointed. She basically guilt tripped the living heck out of me to apply. I pretty much wrote a generic uninspired essay based on the prompt they gave us. And surprisingly I actually got accepted. There was a student intent form you needed to sign before they accept you, and I really wanted to tell my mom that I didn't wanna do this, but I didn't exactly have a choice. There was another meeting for the students who got accepted, and they explained that IB is literally "AP classes on steroids." Luckily for 9th graders you only have to sign up for English IB and Biology IB so all my other classes are normal, but my mom will probably make me continue this for the next 4 years. ______________________________________________________ So yeah, that's a taste of what life's giving me right now. I'm really not in the best mental state. I honestly don't know how I'm gonna survive high school. Sorry this was so long, I just really needed to get this off my chest. Thanks for reading this far, it means a lot to me :') Hope you enjoy the song! I worked really hard on it haha Piano Tutorial: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlAgCsGy6RI
