Sorry. Sorry I haven't been posting, sorry I've been inactive, but...I kinda lost my interest in Scratch. I scrap everything I plan on doing, I get so frustrated when animating, and to top it all off I just feel...bored. All, or rather, most, of my friends are leaving this website/super inactive. I'm losing my interest. Most of the people here are children who will start arguments, attention seekers, or art stealers. Only about 10% of the community has been kind to me, and have been my friend. Also, I've lately been questioning if I should still do animation. I've been having severe art block for stuff here. Because most people here won't understand it, or have lost interest. I've also been having feelings for someone, but...they won't understand. I don't want to ruin our friendship because I want more. I've just been super distracted by her and by Scratch, and...I fear I have to choose few things to keep me motivated here. My grades have been going 'downhill' *cough* and I've just been felling down recently. Exams are coming up, so I want to fix everything between me and my mother. Scratch will not help. I haven't been feeling good recently. I also have the flu, so I physically feel unwell, but also whenever I remember it's a school day I just think: Oh, it's time for another day of unwanted attention and people wanting me to be better than I physically can. Along with my disorder and depression, I now feel incredibly sad emotionally. My friends are distracted by something I don't like, so I just stay alone in the library working on fanfics, drawing, Illicit, etc. Which brings me to another point. I want to focus on my more important projects. Illicit, improving human anatomy, etc. and not MAP parts with choppy frames. I want to improve, but if I have so many tasks like these with things I already know pretty well...well, I'll never be able to focus on things I want to do. I am not asking for pity. I am not going to go into the bathroom and cut my wrists while screaming 'wake me up inside' and listening to 'crawling in my skin' for the 50th time nonstop. I just want to let you all know my life is at a pretty low point right now, and I don't feel very well. So, you all probably know where this will lead. I'm leaving Scratch. Maybe a long hiatus, maybe forever. I'll try to long in sometimes, and see my notifications. I'll reply to people if I can't talk to them elsewhere. Maybe I'll even post a rare, poorly made project. But I will not have constant floods of activity. I might go around and wait until all my MAPs are finished and then leave for a while. I hope you all understand, and may StarClan light your path - <3 --- [removed] ---
