i'm hurt... beyond repair. i'm b r O K e n so.... hey guys... i'll try my best to not be sad.. but how can i? i've been on a hiatus for nearly 2 months. it felt good to live. not only breathe, but to l i v e feel happy the first time i've been in nearly 4 years. instead of sitting at a computer, waiting for approval, i let go of the clothesline of my worries. not caring what people think, being who i WANT to be. not listening to those jerks saying, your art sucks! loser! idiot who can't draw! i have a brother that's 2 years old and he can draw better than you! ugh shut up, nobody cares! try-hard! gay idiot! my dog died, i went through depression, i was so close to breaking apart. but then, you guys, you taped me up and fixed me. but, my life is not in a screen. i need to focus on r e a l things. like school, friends, and most of all, my family. you know what, none of you even care if i leave. i'm bad at art, i'm stupid, and i have depression. i'm gay, and nobody loves me because of that. i asked my mom, how would you feel if someone close to you was gay? she responded, then i'd tell them that they're freaks and they worship satan! everyone says, love is love. but is it? would someone hate me if i was d i f f e r e n t ? i hurt, i have scars that will never heal. for the last time, this is kawaii, signing off. for the last time, goodbye. i love you guys, but nobody loves me. so, bye guys, see you soon, hopefully.
