I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way...I'm not sure what I'm thinking...I feel empty...useless like I have no meaning in life and I'm just another person walking on this earth meant for nothing more than taking up air.I'm not enjoying life like I used too.Don't worry, Not that any of you will. I won't do anything crazy. I just want help. I don't want to feel useless. I don't know what else to do. Who else to turn too. I've been trying to get to a Psychologist but they wouldn't answer there phone and when we swung by the only hours they had were during school which at that point in time I didn't want to miss. I hate myself and the world...I haven't told anybody in real life how I feel and nobody knows because I hide my pain and my depression behind an undeniable mask which I'm good at keeping up no matter what. I'm dealing with other problems mentally as well as well as some hardships IRL to do with family and working hours.I think I'm so open online because...you guys can say you're sorry and try to help me but in the end, you can't help me because I'm beyond reach...I don't tell people IRL cause I don't want them worrying or pitying me...I'm sorry for wasting your time...I just want help...and I just want friends...
I'm going to sleep now.Until tomorrow. I have training tomorrow, even that I'm not looking forward too like I used too... Pics from google... Song: You can be King again
