idk, I was pretty shocked when I looked at starry's personality, it just sounds so like me so I decided to remix, unlike all the other "how @ (random username) are you?"s so yea, I'm 22 out of 30 ;u; I thought I would get about 6 or something-- like usual I have such a weird personality.. (you don't need to read as it'll just waste your time, bro) soo I have two sides I guess, one extroverted the other introverted, like starry I have a hard time opening up (ye like I just moved to Indonesia 3 years ago and I still can't open myself to the people here) I can also be very loyal to a few people I'm comfortable with, maybe known as "friends"? idk much about socializing, so I don't understand much about the word "friends". So far I've only found one person who also finds a hard tie opening up irl, though I had to move to a diff school after I finished my final exam and moved to junior high school. In my school, people don't really appreciate who I really am, they only respect for all my talents (like violin, being able to speak fluent english, and more) and the fact that I've been to the United Kingdom (most people in Indonesia never get to ride on a plane or travel far). Often when a person in my class and I are like in some place where not much people are they would usually try to secretly bully me by trying to make me feel ashamed of who I am, they usually say "you should be more social" with a face and voice that I recognize as bullying or trying to make me their item/servant/whatever you call them. Though I know they'd like my extroverted side more, I still can't let it out. My extroverted side only comes out when I'm with my family, on the internet, or anonymously. Although I can be very emotional and sensetive, here I most like me, like I'm free to do whatever I like without being caught/feeling embarrassed about it. I would usually crack up a joke/pun, annoy my siblings/parents/other ppl, and simply be wild and climb on the roof (yep its a fun hobby, trust me -- if you don't get caught you'll be doing it your whole life long xd I got caught though and got in BIG trouble r.i.p.) When I'm upset/depressed I usually express myself with music/art/craft/eating, my sketchbook is full of depressed art :/. I also have an ambiverted side that I use on people I'm comfortable with and other people who are seperated to their class who are not in my class (how do I explain this--) and to some teachers who respect me (duh most teachers don't), so basically I have no friends atm, they all betray me I guess. so this text is going so far that I might stop typing soon... I know its wrong to spill out all my problems, but I just can't really stand it anymore, its been 3 years I had to hold it in, and now, I feel like its time to let it go Please leave a comment if you have the same problems or diff problems related to socializing, it'll make me feel a lot better hearing I'm not the only one depressed :) I do read comments ^^ Don't forget to support ^^
