i know i don't deserve to post a vent after disappearing for so long but this month has just been so hard for me jealousy, fear, stress i feel like i'll be forever chasing visions of what i want i wish that one of my friends would stop using the past as ammunition i wish i never let go i wish i did better i wish i told her i wish i said something i wish i never said what i said i wish for quiet in my mind