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[NOT THE SONG LYRICS] i wrote it but it would make a gr8 vocaloid if i could translate it to japanese and learn how to sing. (intro with just piano) what if it's all just a dream? what if i never met you? what if all the bad things were just too much? what if i'm surrounded my the ones who only pretend to care? what if i went to bed one night and never woke up? what if i'm trapped in an eternal slumber? what if i'm merely dreaming about the good things i know can never happen? please don't wake me up. oh- you woke me? well.. i'm going now. (drums come in) climbing. climbing the eternal stairs never finding a way to the top is there a top? am i hopelessly climbing until death? is there death at the top? do these stairs lead to heaven? or to the top of a building waiting for me to jump? these stairs seem pretty old... i hope i don't fall. i've come so far i can't find the top. can't see the bottom anymore. i'm just trapped. better keep climbing. has the bottom vanished? does the top think i'm not worthy of finding it? pounding the piano keys playing my sad song. am i not allowed to hope? these stairs getting farther apart. taking bigger steps. until that one time. my foot slips- falling. but is it all a dream? or will i die? i don't want to die. but then why am i climbing? i've forgotten? still falling- no bottom. it could just be that i've come so far. the people who care about me. were they only pretending? did they lure me to these stairs and put me to sleep? was there anyone who did really care? where are they now? will they be here to catch me? have they already died? continuing the fall i can't see the top or bottom. or even the stairs. falling into an eternal black abyss am i dead? is this punishment? for having never loved purely? not my problem. getting tired. my eyes hurt. more then that. my heart. screaming out into the darkness but no one hears it's cry. what does my heart long for? simply love. simply someone who cares. simply to have a light and a top to reach. not the endless stairs into a dark abyss. what is this? a light? a pinkish-bluish light? is this the bottom or the top? my life is upside down. which way is gravity working? towards the light reaching out to the light for a small moment- him. someone who cares. just before i can reach i'm pulled away. life is upside down pulling away from the light down/up towards the bottom/top ouch. since when do i only have one hand? and one leg..? i can't feel anything a hole. a hole in my chest. no heart. how long has that been there? heart and body crumbling away. i never found the top. or did i? if i could go back. before i fell asleep. i want to find him. but how can i still want? where is my heart? my eyes? my life? i hope it's safe with him... *dies* (drums leave but piano continues) 17 seconds later (piano ends)
