dsgjhds i kinda didn't want to post this but it's nice to get some emotions out into the void sometimes y'know not directly aimed like venting at someone just out there for anyone to watch/read if they feel like giving it the time i guess i'm not going to rant about it too directly but i wish they wouldn't say stuff like that i want them to stop picking at my weak spots constantly without a break i hate it i don't want to be tired all the time i don't want to be busy all the time i want them to come back and talk to me the way they used to before it all happened i wish they'd just left me that day and never came back but i miss the old them i need to stop missing the old them they're not coming back i need to stop loving the old them they're gone i'm sorry for the negativity and absence as of late hopefully it'll all straighten out sooner or later
