EDIT 04/06/21 - This project was shared with the intention of rekindling a friendship. I apologize to people who may have been concerned for me during this time. Sadly, the friend I made this project for turned out to be a vastly different person. We no longer have friendly relations. I will leave their replies on my projects instead of deleting them. The original apology and song credit is down below. Original Desc: hey there @pininq, you might not read this, or will,, im not honest with myself, let alone other people. aha- we've gone through a lot, haven't we? we've both experienced a lot of friend loss this year, misunderstandings, paranoia (mostly on my part-), a lot of bottled up sadness, and a plethora of masks we wore to school. because we weren't ok. i don't think we ever were in the first place. but things got better over-time. i know you are still regaining yourself after all of these friendship problems and the loss of a relationship- but i wanted to let you know- i'm still here. i dont like expressing myself this way, because every time, a person takes this and leaves- and i want to believe you arent going to do the same, but most people take without giving back. i know you arent like most people who are petty and dishonest. im just struggling to open up a bit. ive always been that way. ive had fear and paranoia of others that has caused me to want 'friends' to not be around me anymore- i cant cope with i have done to others, fearing everyone else is going to get hurt all for my own self-punishment. i think about my actions everyday. i cant stand myself and the way i treat others. i cant forgive myself- possibly for the rest of life- i dont want you to be the next person for me to push away, but the first person to understand... even if im not completely 'there', please understand that im still here for you. i am the one- next to normal
