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I know it's been a long time since i have posted something but i just wanted to talk to someone about this: I know this might not sound serious but I was watching BTS vines, in one part they compare Jungkook's new hair color saying "when you eat too many cheetos" I was reminded of one of those things people say, like with the stylist and they say something like, "I like noodles" and they just make a little happy thing about it I guess. That came to my mind so i commented it. A person later replied saying it wasn't funny, that Jungkook is very insecure about his hair color. That's why he has darker shades more often. I knew about this, but I guess it didn't occur in my head. I started getting too negative, and my thoughts kept telling me that I was so cruel, and that I don't deserve to like BTS. I started crying, I felt terrible, I have used the past few years of my life supporting them and hoping they would go into great success. They did, but reading that comment made me think how terrible I was. I felt terrible, like I was betraying these people who made me so happy, and while I make them so insecure. I never wanted to make Jungkook regret having a different color of hair, I loved his hair, and it made me happy how he was opening up. But I never thought once on how the comment could have been so rude in so many ways. I felt terrible, in fact, while I'm writing this I'm crying. I want him to feel comfortable. The same goes for the rest of them! I just wanted to say this, and say I am sorry, for hurting them, and possibly offending many people. I deleted the comment like the person who replied requested. I still feel terrible, I was just being a dumb person at the time. I still haven't forgiven myself, I feel terrible, I wonder if they saw it. I would be a terrible ARMY, and I want to support them, all the way. I just wondered how stupid I can get, but I am human, and I do make mistakes. I should forgive myself, but I haven't. I hope the person that replied to my comment sees this and I hope they understand that I am truly sorry. Sorry, for hurting anyone's feelings... I didn't mean to sound rude, but now I'm just making excuses. I know what I did and I hope I don't sound like I'm trying to say I'm the good person here. I know what I did was wrong. I'm sorry.
