Marigold, wherever you are now, i want you to know that you meant so much to me. That you were the world to me. I want you to know that you could turn on me, bite me till i bled, and force-fed me cat food, that NO MATTER WHAT, i will always love you. It was not your time to go, my friend. It was unfair for you, my little kitten, to have gotten cancer at such a young age. With every step i took, and every breath i took, you were there, and you were the world. So, in a way, by losing you, i lost the world. And i lost sense. Everything is dull and colorless without you. And I feel like i barely knew you. The day that i adopted you, was quite possibly the best day of my life. To see this cat, this cat that would become part of my family, it was just great. I wished i'd stayed with you to the end. I will never forget you. You were the wings that let me fly, you were the key that opened up the cage i was in. And without you, i feel worthless. I am stuck in my cage again. I have forgotten how to fly. You were, are and forever will be my life. And i hope for you to know i am crying right now, because i need you. Without you i am empty, a shell just asking to be cracked. I don't want to end this, I don't want yesterday to have been the last day I felt your fur, The last day you flipped your head over the way you have always done. I am nothing without you, without the presence of an animal. And when I see your food or water bowl, I need you here. now. No matter whoever else comes, whatever else happens, I will never forget you. I will never stop loving you. never. Forever now, and forever later, Wherever I go, whatever happens t me, I will always love you. All this was too much to say yesterday. As you grew sleepy, i did. When you were gone I was. And somehow, someday, we will meet again. Even if you are a drawing on a page, a holograph in a book, and image in a dream, we will meet again. And i will never forget your fur. or your eyes, or your face. I will never forget you. And i hope that wherever you go, you know i am here to support you. Forever. Always. Marigold. You mean the world to me. I can hardly bare to unlock my phone knowing that your picture is my wallpaper. Yet, even more i cannot bear to change it. I can't bear to unlock my computer, knowing i will have to type your name. I can not bear to change it. I have Joey, but Joey is joey, and he is not here all the time. So, my old friend, I love you. Now, then, and always. And Danny too. RIP, Marigold, 12/3/16-9/19/18 Forever in my heart. Edit: I don feel well. I grieve too much. Its odd, that i can have such a good day, and end up crying at the end of it I miss you marigold. You are forever I'm my heart. Edit: I feel like I should not be crying, but I am. My eyes are welling up even though Kevin-Murphy is running around, the crazy cat he is. It’s weird to see your food bowls in the bathroom again. It’s weird because now their his. Sammy is lying on the floor, you’d be eating her hair by now. Is that weird? Have you seen grandma yet? She would have liked you, and you could have had a conversation about your favorite foods and drinks. You deserve to go to a place better than heaven, and I hope that you are already there. I haven’t forgotten you. I won’t ever, I promise.
