hello youre probably bored/unintrested already so i'll try to keep this as short as possible but i have something i want to say and there's only so much you can say in 45 minutes so here's my vent for my stupid insignificant problems: ive mentioned this before but i feel like creativity is a problem for me. i consider myself a creative person. i spend a lot of time thinking of impractical stuff. pointless, essentially. people say creativity is good, and theyre right if you know what to do with it. ill have a strike of creative drive and sit at my computer for twenty minutes trying to figure out what to do. ill come up with nothing and go back and watch youtube or something but ill have this anxiety saying "hey what are you doing be productive" and i have to sit at my computer until i do something to i guess calm myself so i can NOT have to create something. i made the mistake of bringing my school computer up to my room to charge it and check my scratch messages and i felt anxious that i hadnt created anything so i recorded myself playing ukelele on my second account. i actually want to know if anybody watching this has had something similar to this. im making this because i want to say this so if i disappear from scratch you know why. apologies if you came here and are now bored, and thanks for listening to my pointless rambling.
