i don't know if anyone else has felt like this before, but weirdly it doesn't feel like he's gone.. i still feel like i'm gonna come home and pet him or hear his little squeak.
my hamster, cookie, died on September 30 2018. He was the first pet i ever got (other than fish.) I never called him cookie tho, it was always hammy, hammy boy, baby, or baby boy. I don't know why i did it, i just did. He will always be the best hamster i could've ever asked for. Wherever you are, i hope you have sunflower seeds with you, they were your favorite. Rest in peace my little baby....rest in peace.