(ORIGINAL TEXT) this is for a friend DONT TRY ME I HOLD GRUDGES Listen, Alexis. I'm so sorry. Okay...? I just want you to forgive me! I really don't want this ripped away from me. I know you hate me, but I'm sorry. Okay? Can we just work this out? Please? I'm begging you. I'm so terrified... What happened to you? This isn't your account, this is OUR account, because we're supposed to be friends... (Also, I love this song. It's a Chapter 4 BATIM song, sung by Alice Angel, don't try me boi, lol.) Just... I'm sorry. Please forgive me... ~~~~ Note: This project has not been altered in any way, shape, or form. No notes and credits / instructions have been removed or edited. It's time to put a stop to all this. In case you don't want to open the project, the content is simply poorly recorded music (Chapter 4 BATIM song) and the words 'You don't own my account, S-E-P-T-I :)' Let me explain why I am reposting this all this time later. Alexis, if you are reading this, We Are Not Friends. Throughout my time in quarantine, I've had some time to think. And there is NOBODY quite like you. You have manipulated me, put me down, made me beg, and hurt me in more ways than you could EVER imagine. Remember when you posted this project? You had gotten angry with me because I asked you if you took down an animation I had spent 3 days on. You said 'No.'. I thought that would be the end of it. But no, I go to log into the account that we made TOGETHER, to SHARE, and I find you changed the password. I was nearly in tears, and I BEGGED you to give me the new password. You did, and I changed it back. Just because the account was on YOUR email address, it does not mean it belongs to ONLY you. Let's move on now, shall we? OC SHAMING - You have made fun of my OCs, the series I have created, and the stories I've written since the beginning. You always have some remark about their their design or their personality. Perhaps the backstory is not what YOU think it should be? Well, NEWS FLASH. They are MY creations, and I choose all of that. ART SHAMING - Do you remember telling me all those hurtful things? 'playfully' mocking my art style? Telling me YOURS was better because you read a book? I doubt you do. You made me terrified to show you ANY art I did, regardless of how proud I was of it. VIOLENCE AND TOXICITY - Why did all of this start? Because YOU said something you NEVER should have said. I don't care how jokingly you say it, threatening to SEXUALLY ASSAULT someone is NEVER appropriate. I have matured past the point of using such a traumatic subject in my own work, and I think it's high time you learn too. Remember all those 'accidents' in theatre? Threatening me with a knife? The set piece? The destroyed set pieces? You shot me with a staple gun. You watched me vomiting and coughing once from the paint. You didn't go to get help. You simply laughed. Remember when you got angry with me because I put in an order of paints and such because YOU decided to take a week off of school? Remember coming to me with fresh cuts on your arms almost every day? Showing them off, just to get the shocked and worried reaction you wanted? You may have forgotten all of this, but I sure haven't. Those were traumas to me. I thought I wouldn't make it out of that place alive. Let's talk about you spreading rumors about me, shall we? Do you SERIOUSLY think it's appropriate to say I told you to K*LL YOURSELF mere HOURS after it became public that a friend of mine at the school we BOTH go to had committed s*icide the night before? I did not confront you just to make you cry. I confronted you because I was sick and tired of you lying about me. You told them I was a thief, you told them I was a bad friend, you made ME look like the bully. You victimized yourself, for what? Attention? Are you serious? We are not children anymore. You can't break me down and expect me to still respect you. You cannot break me down, and expect me to still care about you the way I do for Rynn, Ry, Wynter, Mack, and Bobbi. None of them have EVER betrayed me the way YOU have. I was too naive to see what you were doing to me. And once I did, we began to drift apart. Yeah, I may have still played Uno with you and Wynter using the cards I carry with me, but that doesn't mean we are 'Besties'. I should have known you would never change when you lied to your mother about me 'stealing' your things, when you really gave them to me as friendship 'gifts', when you got hurt of the playground because of your own stupidity, and then blamed me, making the injury out to be completely worse than it really was, when you stole my first crush from me. You manipulated me into hating HIM, when he never did a single thing wrong. And I can't apologize now, because too much time has passed. You always blame someone else for your problems. Remember the messages you sent me, threatening to hurt yourself? Just because one of my online friends didn't want to be caught in the middle of our feud.
Continued: HIDING YOUR ACTIONS - And here you are, pretending none of it has ever happened. Yeah, I may have been talking to you on your profile, but whether you noticed or not, I was baiting you. My statements were intentionally passive aggressive. Remember when you sicced CG on me? He told me what you said about me. You're writing an autobiography, huh? Oh, so you said I made you want to die? I'm sorry about that, snowflake. But if I make you want to die, you'll never survive in the real world. You lied to CG. You made me look bad to him, and now he won't talk to me anymore. Do you feel accomplished? We argued for a good hour, before he said goodbye for the last time. I deleted the thread, because I didn't want any drama from it. I didn't address you about it either, again, because I didn't want any drama. CREATING EXTRA DRAMA FOR YOURSELF - Don't think I forgot everything that happened in 6th grade. You threatening to hurt yourself, you lying about things you'd done... I've heard a lot of things you've done, including trying to break apart a very close friend of mine and their significant other. (They asked me not to make the details public, so, out of respect for them, I will not go into detail with this one.), talking trash about my friends, and blatantly denying issues they may have. You glorify mental illness, and act like it's a fantastic thing to have. You feel like it's exclusive, and only you get to have it. It's disgusting. Mental illness is not a good thing, it's traumatic and interferes with the ability to fit into society 'normally'. I should know, considering I have Borderline Personality Disorder, and Social Anxiety Disorder. I have had 2 previous bouts of depression, in one I attempted to take my own life. When you found out, all you could do was shrug and say 'well, you're still here'. I needed support, and guess where I got it? From Rynn. You never once tried to help me through it. You encouraged my self-destructive behaviour and my frequent self harm. What kind of friend does that make you? Simple. Not. In conclusion, thinking about our combined past has let me realize you aren't a friend at all. You're a leech, sucking the life out of me until there's nothing left. You've made me cry so many times, I don't think I could every cry over your actions again. So please, I would appreciate if we ended all contact here. I have much better friends I could interact with that treat me with respect, and don't talk about me behind my back. I am not the same as I used to be, and you will NEVER get 'FNaF', 'Septi', or 'Shaku' back. Those versions of me are gone, and I am much more comfortable with who I have become. I will not allow you to drag me down anymore. I am not your mother, and I am not your babysitter. You are not my responsibility, and it is not my concern how this makes you feel. I'd appreciate if you handled this on your own, like the 15-16 year old are, rather than crying and running to an adult like a small child. To anyone else reading this, which I don't mind if you do, after all, this is a warning to anyone who may interact with the person of interest, please do not attack anyone, and do not start gossip regarding this. This is not to start drama, this is to end it. I'm tired of this cat-and-mouse game I've been trapped in for the past 4 years. I never realized it's been going on this long, but it honestly has. I have chosen to be the bigger person here, and instead of trying to fight this tooth and nail until someone eventually gets hurt or even killed, I am stopping this dead in it's tracks. I have had enough. I'm done with what you've been doing to me, and you're quiet about it. You had me wrapped around your finger, and you knew exactly what you were doing. Well, I'll be damned if it happens again. I suppose this is goodbye. I wish you the best of luck, and maybe we can rekindle polite contact once you've corrected your mistakes and learned to treat others ethically. With best regards, - ■ Nova / Aloe ■
