We had a test which can decide what high school you're going to. Me and my friend (I'll call them Y) Although, it isn't compulsory that you go to the chosen high school. We both got into the same high school. I was excited to go to a high school who I thought was my best friend. We've been friends for 3(?) years, I thought we'd see each other as best friends. Y and I ''promised'' that we'd go to the same high school. We didn't really promise but we did plan and talk about high school a lot. We also had two other friends, A and S. Then, we had a program that was pretty much to go to our local high school and endure all the subjects every high schooler endured every Thursday. I hung out with Y, S and A of course. They were my friends, although, I noticed Y and S hung out without me and A more often. This made me feel worthless because I was nothing to Y and S is more superior. Then, the next week, my parents told me that Y isn't going to the same high school as me, they're going to S's high school. I cried a lot. I wanted to die. Y and S were friends and I was pretty much the third wheel to their friendship. I cried for hours until realizing that I was right. Y liked S better than me. But S likes drama and will try to cause from time to time and I'm the opposite of that. I'm very quiet and would like to stay out of trouble. Y and I walked to school the next day. I tried to not think about the previous day. A few more days of this program and A's mom decided to not let them go to the program anymore because A isn't going to the high school I'm going to and they're not going to the high school the program was set in. I was saddened by the news. A was my friend, a really good one and I won't be able to see them during the program. I guess this brings us to the present. I'm kind of trying to avoid walking to school with Y because it'd be awkward. Y doesn't know that I know that she's not going to the same high school as me. Y and S are close as ever while me and A talk. I still hang out with Y and S though, even in the program, we have more friends. But I'm still the quiet one. TL;DR: I'm jealous of my two of my friend's friendship because I get ignored and I'm never really part of their conversation. Thanks for listening to me ramble. <3 edit, 20.11.2020: we had drama but we resolved it! we're all very close friends now, thank you for sticking with me <3<3<3
