So... My dad isn't making me but I don't want to get hurt.. knowing my dad he would do that... but apparently I don't meet his expectations in school so I'm going to be leaving Scratch for a bit... I don't want him to hurt me just because I can't do my school work... The problem is that; I would do the work if I could... But whenever I try doing something on my own without instructions my mind; by itself; no matter how hard I try not to; forgets everything said to me that was said in the past few minutes... That's why i'm having problems with Math and Social Studies.. I am also regularly late to class for 2'nd period because my locker won't open and I usually have troubles remembering where I put things... I have F's in two classes which are Math and Social Studies; I have mainly C's and D's which; for my smart level; is pretty good.. but again.. not meeting my dads "expectations" apparently.. I feel like he doesn't love me and only wants me to do best in school so I don't ruin his name as an engineer.. he was much smarter than me in school so he became a computer tech and engineer when he grew up.. but I was adopted so I don't traits like him.. He always compares me as a failure to my bigger sister who has a degree in many things; mainly school.. so according to him I am just a failure and need to do better.. but I can't.. my mind just can't process some things.. he also compares it to how I can remember lyrics to songs but math.. I think the reason for that is because music brings me happiness.. unlike him and school which are to high for my standards.. the reason why i'm so forgetful is because when my real mom was preg. with me, she never took the right pills for it and also drank alot.. she also never ate any minerals or protein.. which is probably the cause of my mind forgetting things easily.. so yeah.. I'm sorry.. I wish I could stay.. this place brings me joy.. but I don't want to get hurt.. sorry guys......... bye........
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