Hey guys, found a great song today... means something special to me You scrolling down here is what I don't allow people to do. Stop Go back I'll just keep laughing But not really. I put on a show for everyone around me, I smile, I laugh, I pretend to be a tough gal- someone that isn't afraid of anything or anyone. This is what I make myself into... this is what I make myself believe. I force myself to put on a leather jacket, to be a role model for myself. I've never been good at making friends- my best friend, @Earthheart42, is the closest friend I've had. She listens to me and hears me out to the best of her ability, but even she doesn't know the extent of my faults- my broken, twisted life and feelings about myself. I don't know what else to say... I care so much about everything. I care about my family. I care about my friends. I care about my grades, my future, and my life. I want so badly for it all to go right, for me to succeed, but it's hard to tread water when you put on a lead swimming suit. I'm not asking for sympathy, for an 'I'm sorry' or 'what can I do to help.' please don't ask. I just want to say to everyone that I'm not really such a happy person, that I have other feelings.
Fake Happy by Paramore :D
