honestly? life's looking pretty crappy. dont get me wrong. im grateful for everything i have. but my family hates me. whatever, right? everyone goes through that. but it hurts. it hurts that my mom and her boyfriend look down on me as the irresponsible daughter that doesn't have good grades. she's not talented. she's not pretty. she's lazy, stupid, ungrateful, silly, a crybaby, etc. and it hurts more that im too weak and instead of ignoring it, i can't. they act like i can't hear. and my friends get uncomfortable if i say anything depressing or try to vent my feelings so for now, i guess i got to hold in my feelings. i'll be okay, though. it just kinda hurts.
