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oh, dont mind this. Im just at my gaga ((grandma))'s house and she's lowering my self esteem. Nothing I say helps anyone. I'm pretty sure I make everyone feel worse. I'm always trying to seem like a good friend and I'm just being stupid. And now my siblings are arguing over "who's the favorite child" ... I just wanna cry. I just wanna give up. But I can't... I don't want you guys to be upset over me. I don't know what to do, I'm gonna screw everything up. DONT WORRY ABOUT IT! :,) And now my mom is yelling at me acting like she doesn't see that I'm trying not to cry. THIS DARN OKRA IS TRIGGERING ME ((trypophobia..)) it's sad because i can keep a conversation going online, but in real life, I would probably mentally freak out and not say anything at all. oh ya, take my voice and throw it in the dump. And here's a poem I made: OH, and btw, when i'm saying "you're," i'm talking about myself. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You're sick, you're sick, you're sick, says everyone else Because when you're troubled, you never ask for help. You think that they can read your mind, but you close it up so no one can see, you hide your yelp. You're sick, you're sick, you're sick. I should accept that I am a female, no I'm trans, no, I am bisexual, no I am biromantic, what are you trying to be? I'm a believer, I'm a sinner, I'm a loser, I'm a winner, What is my true identity? You're sick, you're sick, you're sick. In this friendship, I don't know what to do. Because when I smile, something happens to you. I don't want you to be hurt and tell me it's not my fault at all Because I can't help but cry thinking of you upset, now I just wanna punch a wall. But I still love you, I hope later in high school, we can call. Without you, I might as well fall. You're sick, you're sick, you're sick. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ((Oke, this was very bad but i was venting..))
