i'm still alive.
why have i been so inactive? are you wondering that right now? is it just lack of inspiration? or just no motivation. i'm tired of telling myself "i'm okay" and putting on this mask that on the outside says: "i'm happy and cheerful!" when on the inside it says: "i'm a failure and a waste that needs to be erased." i've been depressed for years without you knowing. why have i been hiding it all this time? i just. don't. know. this isn't made for you to wallow in my pity and be all like: "oh, pity you". i'm trying to spread a message. if you or a loved one or anyone you know is struggling with mental illnesses such as depression or anxiety, help them. comfort them. be there for them. the best thing that they need is to know that people care. and please, talk to someone. there are so many wonderful sources for help that you could refer to, please, talk to someone. you are allowed to feel sad every now and then, but you are NOT allowed to give up. you're not worthless.
