View Count - 36 [єитєя ¢σ∂є...] **** []α¢¢єρтє∂[] [ωαяиιиg | νєит?] So... there's a lot to talk about. And that's with you, yes you. If you only come here for the art.. well t̶h̶a̶n̶k̶s̶ ̶a̶ ̶l̶o̶t̶. There are multiple sections to this... If you're ready, then you can go right in and scroll down. ѕє¢тισи 1 - υиєи∂ιиg ¢у¢ℓє ѕє¢тισи 2 - тнιѕ ιѕ яιggє∂ ѕє¢тισи 3 - ιgиσяαи¢є ѕє¢тισи 4 - тнє ѕєνєи ∂єα∂ℓу ѕιиѕ ѕє¢тισи 5 - ∂ιѕтяυѕт ѕє¢тισи 1 - υиєи∂ιиg ¢у¢ℓє ... maybe I shouldn't care anymore... People keep following and unfollowing me.. like it's an entire cycle going over and over again... just like life.. haha, wanna hear a joke? Well.. I'm the joke. Why do people like me? Why do I get followers in the first place? How in the world do people find me?! I'm just a bad influence.. anyway. Unless it could be by mistake? No.. that doesn't seem like it. Are people tired of me? ... That's not it either... then what is it? Why? Can perhaps someone tell me the answer to this unending cycle? I mean, I unfollow some people because they either don't interest me anymore or it's just them. It's an unending cycle for me (and others), people follow, and then days or weeks later they unfollow and leave. I guess I could delete the lightner count, I mean, it does take up space and it's practically useless, just like me. Here's my question to you. What would make people unfollow? People like getting follows, but unfollowing may hurt them (to a really famous person most likely not). It hurts to me, however. It's like people don't like me anymore and just leave without a word. With little followers, you can track who those people are. But with many pages of followers, it's like an ant that couldn't make it along the way. But the follower count goes down, and that's what hurts. A person that I can't even trace, who doesn't say anything to me, just leaves like I'm nothing more than a user. I have feelings too, y'know. So how come this happens? Is it because of my interests? Change of habits? My username? M̶y̶s̶e̶l̶f̶? Tell me, reader. Why this happens and how can I improve. ѕє¢тισи 2 - тнιѕ ιѕ яιggє∂ This is rigged. Unless it's just me. Games are rigged, life is rigged, everything is rigged. It's simply corrupt. I don't know any other way to explain this. It's just simply rigged and corrupt. ѕє¢тισи 3 - ιgиσяαи¢є This happens yet here and in real life. I try to answer to every comment I receive, but not every comment gets a reply. What can it be, it's either the person is busy, offline, not interested in the topic anymore, the person doesn't see it, or they simply just don't want to reply to it. I'm still waiting for replies here on scratch, but then I most of the time don't get replies to what I say, no matter how loud I raise my voice to call out to the person. It's exhausting, for my heart and soul that is (and my voice). This also hurts. Why? Oh, quite many reasons. It could be that they don't hear me or they simply don't want to answer me (irl). There are reasons that I don't want to repeat. Tell me if I'm ignoring you. In real life, the reason would be that I'm not in the mood at that moment or i̶t̶'s̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶s̶i̶n̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶e̶n̶v̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶u̶n̶t̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶m̶e̶. On scratch however, I could possibly either forgot about it while I'm replying to another message or I didn't see it (but I make sure that I don't miss anything). ѕє¢тισи 4 - тнє ѕєνєи ∂єα∂ℓу ѕιиѕ No, I don't want to talk about the manga/anime "The Seven Deadly Sins" (or nanatsu no taizai) here for a break. If you read the end of Section 3, then you'd see one of the seven deadly sins, the sin of envy. I'm practically all the sins, well except for pride, gluttony, and maybe greed. I also am the characters in the manga/anime "The Seven Deadly Sins" (so maybe this is a break for me). "Why do I add this section" you may ask? Probably the majority of the world (almost everyone perhaps) has at least one of the sins in them. Here's a joke for a break, I guess: wrath + gluttony = hangry. I don't think people would find it funny though in a mood like this now. I'm mostly the sin of sloth and envy (which I had said on my profile if you had paid attention "The Sin of Sloth"). Sloth here isn't the animal sloth (trying to lighten up the mood.. doesn't seem to be working), but meaning laziness (which is probably why the sloth is called, well, sloth). Here are the explanations why I'm these sins: sloth - well, I'm a lazy, easy-going person. I don't want to do anything but sleep over the weekdays (and play some games while drawing). Weekends are short people. (If i would be one of the seven deadly sins characters, I'd of course be King/Harlequin.. excluding the human form of course) envy - I am envious towards those who have true friends. I remember someone sent an email with something that said "true friends stick by you like family". This applies to none of the people I know, which means I don't have true friends. Well I'd consider a true friend like that, too..
[ѕє¢тισи 4 - тнє ѕєνєи ∂єα∂ℓу ѕιиѕ -continued-] ... Unless your family isn't a good one... then the thing doesn't apply. Well maybe my definition of a true friend is slightly different. "A true friend. Someone who is willing to tell you the whole truth and story. They would also be there for you always, never betraying you nor lie to you. Someone you can lean on for support and they wouldn't mind helping. A kind and loving person. Someone who can take you seriously but not seriously at the same time at certain moments. Someone who would give useful advice, and of course, maybe most of the time being jocular, who would make you smile and laugh with them." I, however, don't have a person with me who's like that. That's why I'm envious towards people who actually do have true friends. I also don't like being in groups of three or more outside the classroom. Why? Because I rarely get the chance to talk. I'm mainly unnoticed along many people. Envious. I guess I could explain more about me being most of the seven deadly sins another time. ѕє¢тισи 5 - ∂ιѕтяυѕт I distrust humans. I've been through many experiences where I've seen (and heard) the dark side of human nature. The corruption in human kind. There's so many insane things going on all around the world. But that's not it. There's betrayl, something I've been through since elementary school. Okay, I stepped on an earthworm before (that was in a muddy puddle), then got strangled. The next day/week, I got in trouble. Little innocent me in fifth grade tried making friends with my classmates. I tried to come up with topics to talk about. Disregarding the topic, the person I was talking to would say "cool" and walk away, going to talk to their friends. A single stab in my heart. This happened over and over again, each stab created cracks. People left me alone, crying in the corner with my life in pieces... This is the internet, people. Whatever you share online goes everywhere. I will delete this project when this gets 26 views, you hear me? Well, read me in this case. I guess I could keep the art if you guys actually like it. Well back to the topic. I'm still going through this, even today (well not the say "cool" and walk away part, but still). Let's have some fun while we still can. This was an image I found: -insert picture of a cute sloth here.. maybe- I are not deadly sin... I are babee sloth Doesn't help? Oh well. [¢яє∂ιтѕ] αят - gσσgℓє ѕєαя¢н - ѕα∂ αиιмє gιяℓ * (... maybe I should just give up and leave this place. Do people just follow me just to unfollow me and make–– no, force–– me to remember all the horrible things that had happened to me that's related to this? Like when I made some friends who left me during the next few weeks? Heh, what a joke. I'm also the joke, right? It's fun to make me suffer, right? Thanks a lot you bunch. It's like everything I do doesn't have affect on you guys. Guess I should leave. If there are 26 views on this project and nothing else, I'll just delete this project and perhaps even all of my projects and just leave. It's not like you guys would care, right? Heck, it's like you only come and view my projects and just leave. I should do that too then. Just leave the internet and actually stop procrastinating. I thought I could make people happy, but I only bring sadness and anger into their lives as I "annoy" them. Very well. Maybe I should be the emotionless person (aka gowther) for the rest of my life, maybe putting the shield down to laugh a little while being harlequin/helbram. Yeah, that'll be my life if this project just gets twenty-six views. Ta ta) - signed, SansationalFrisk (SansFrisk)
