5/22/19 - What The Community Is Loving, thank you all so much <3 5/27/19 - What The Community Is Remixing, again thank you all so muchh <3 I also wanted to put a note that nobody did anything to me, in fact I'm pretty much the cause of everything that happened. But I thank you all for the kind messages :) Random Note: This project breaks sometimes and I honestly don't know how to fix it ;v; Hey guys, it's been quite a while since I've shared my last project. This is literally my first project of 2019 haha, but um...Happy May ;v; Honestly I wasn't even sure if I was going to continue making projects or not, but I decided that I would still share projects, just not very frequently like I used to. Anywaysss, a lot has happened in the span of 5 months haha. I've honestly felt a lot happier than I was between the months of December and January. Somebody has made me the extremely happy, and I have a project for that very person hopefully coming out sometime soon because that gift is very much late- At the same time, I've been feeling a little bit of sadness...more than sadness, more regret...because I have done some awful things back in late 2017/early 2018...and I'm not really sure if I will ever get the chance to make up for what I did. So I guess this project is partially a vent. It was a way to show how much my art has been improving, but also a way to get my feelings out on paper (well, screen-). It all represents my once-had innocence, my dishonesty towards the subject, my envy which made me do what I did in the first place, and my regret from all of the choices I made because of my envy and dishonesty. Part of it is represented from the facial expressions, but I also added in the detail of the flowers in the background: Daisy represents innocence. Red Dahlia represents dishonesty. Yellow Rose represents envy. Asphodel represents regret. I don't really want to get into what I did, I mean there could be a chance where it will probably be found out at some point, but I was told that there was no need to make it a public matter. Either way, it was never okay for me to do in the first place. I guess a lesson is that jealousy and envy can really do damage, and the best way to deal with it is to try and control yourself, don't let jealousy get the best of you because it will affect any relationship you have with anybody, and it all becomes a domino effect, making you feel worse off than when you were initially effected by that envy. It's still best to live your life in the present, and I shouldn't keep letting my past self hurt me this badly, but I haven't been able to properly vent about this for awhile because I was so foolish. And if there is any chance that the persons I hurt is reading this, I really want you to know that I am so sorry, and I wish I was able to change how I was at the time because it wasn't fair to you and it wasn't fair to anybody. Anyways...I hope to make more happy projects in the near future, thank you all for watching <3 Credits: Original Inspiration: Song: Worst In Me by Unlike Pluto Art: Coding: Possibly a mix between and , with changes by to help fit everything I wanted to, like the hair appearing behind the body as well as the head, or the addition of the arm movement. I worked on this on a spam from the end of April up until the share date. I hope you enjoyed, see you next time. Scratch on <3
