i smile but i wanna cry i talk but i wanna be quiet i pretend like im happy but im not ... behind my smile is a hurting heart behind my laugh im falling apart look closely at me and you will see the girl i am isnt me ... was it ever me to begin with? i dont know maybe i changed from the day i met you but if i did im sorry im sorry you had to deal with me im sorry i was being fake im sorry i wanted to be like you you were ... funny .... happy .... supportive ... that classic introvert ... everything i wasnt i wanted to change so i did but only when i met you you changed me from the day we were sharks eating up bits of fish from the day we were giraffes eating from the trees from the day we laughed together which was every day you always made me laugh you always made me smile i wanted to do the same to you i wanted to make you happy just like you had done to me but now... i just feel as though all the change ive gone through wasnt worth it it was i think for the greater good my old self was terrible more shy and idiotic than the self i am now but i wished i had just tried harder but im tired to trying because im stuck here in my square of nothingness and pity for everyone who has the burden of knowing me i just wish the the square could let me out but im trapped here with no way out its impossible with me still being in it.... ~ you know who you are you know if im talking about you ive known you for two years but have you really known me? if you somehow come across this just letting you know you dont have to worry its fine but i wish you knew the real me because i changed just for you ... i wanted you to like me but i think it failed
