you lot. leave me alone. this is just a little thing i made. you should probably go now. if you're still here. no i'm not going to be all edgy with this. i will address some main points on what is going on with me as of this moment in time. i feel like people watch me. this is my anxiety. it speaks to me sometimes. in actual english language. it creeps me out. i don't know how it got here. or why it's here. i used to go to a phycologist. and i lied. a whole lot. she gave me a test to fill out. to see if i had and mental health issues. and i lied all the way through. i don't know why. i wanted my parents to think i was happy i guess. and i still am. most of the time. sometimes. i actually hear things. nothing really weird. but sometimes i just get inaudible voices talking in the distance. sometimes i stop to wonder. what are they talking about? are they really just in my head? this brings me to my next point. people. everyone. scares me. is this normal? i think so. anxiety. most people have it. and god if you do, i'm very sorry. it's the constant feeling of people watching you. in humanities class the other day these two kids behind me were laughing. i thought they were laughing at me. at basketball in hpe class. i thought i failed at the whole thing and people were staring. every day when i get to school i think i have the wrong uniform on, or had forgotten something. now, that is normal. i know. but... i feel that sensation too much. for a normal person anyways. it feels, like as i type this, my parents are watching me. i feel like when i'm taking a shower there are stalkers watching me, so i cover myself, even if one of my parents walked in i would do the same. i think i have philophobia. i think all of the boys in my classes like me. which is odd. because why would they? so i always make sure to blend in and look as ugly as possible when i walk into school. you know. just in case. but really, what are the odds? in english class. i had to read out a page of a book. and i feel like my voice sounded like i was struggling to speak, and that everyone thought it was weird. and i do know. that's not the case. but the sane part of my mind is just distance voices. screaming at me to stop. maybe those are the voices. anyways. i won't talk anymore. and i'll probably delete this soon. bye. ~SkilaSki
