Wow. Just...wow. 20-frickin'-20! I feel like I should be in a Cyberpunk action-noir or something! This just doesn't feel real. - Y'all probably know this, but if you don't...this account is essentially dead. I no longer have time for this site, and life has just changed for me over these past few years of dwindling activity. HOWEVER, I have made a promise to myself to give y'all an update like this every year--sometimes voiced, sometimes text--to show y'all that I'm okay. - With that out of the way... - This decade has been a wild ride. I went from a little girl without a care in the world (save those weird little things she did sometimes that made old ladies look at her funny) to a young woman who has discovered and embraced her anxiety, genetically-inherited-depression, and Aspergers. I learned what it felt like to be heartbroken, found a new faith in God, and took the first shaking steps to uncovering who I really am as a person. - The best way I can describe this past year is, "Trial by Fire." - I adjusted to my diagnoses in late 2018, but life decided that, seeing as it was too late for an ambush, that it was time to attack me with reckless abandon. I had panic attacks, depressive episodes, I learned the benefits and downfalls of a happy home on the Spectrum...but, you know what? In the end, I grew from it. Scrap that--I grew BECAUSE of it! - I've gone from seeing the world in technicolor, to black-and-white, to the true colors of society. I've gone from rose-colored-glasses to jade-colored-glasses to...well, probably normal glasses with the /tiniest tint/ of green. In 2010, I cried over Steve from Blue's Clues going away to college; in 2020, I start looking for colleges of my own, to pursue a Marketing degree. - Long story short, I've grown up. I'm not quite an old geezer, but I'm far from the naive little girl I used to be. In some ways, growing up sucks, but in other ways? I've found more freedom to be myself, more validation, more pride in who I am at my core, as the woman I am today. This next decade's gonna be pretty crazy, but I know I'm gonna get through it. And, I'm betting y'all will too. - I'll miss you all, and I love you guys so, so much. - Sincerely, J.
Song: Skyscraper by Demi Lovato - Artwork: The Changeling Child by @SeaBreezeDalek9 - And, for the strength to keep me going, the first friends I found who I could feel comfortable with, my ride-or-dies...well, my darlings, the credit goes to you. - Thank you. (Project was originally uploaded on January First, 2020)
