'Tis the season to vent.. falalala la la la... So anywho, I've recently been seeing quite a few vents fly around, and ironically enough, there's something I wanted to vent about too. I wasted two years on a pack of Cheetos and a churro It all started two years ago at my friend's bday party, and she invited a bunch of people some I knew, some I didn't. One of these people was someone I didn't often talk to, but considered my friend: Kam. Kam was really fun and sweet, and that was the night I realized: WELP. I have feelings for a girl. I started talking to Kam more often and we became closer friends. We occasionally argued but always made up, I was able to talk to her about anything, and I doubted she knew this, but I loved her beyond what I thought I'd feel. Two years went by and here I am, dating a girl named Chey. She was very sweet, but sadly I hate to admit it, but she was more-so a rebound than someone I liked. Kam was dating people left and right, and it seemed like every few weeks someone would fall for her and she'd fall back. Finally, I gave up on lying to myself. I didn't like Chey, and it was slowly turning into an unhealthy relationship. I was being told to shut up, forced to stay quiet, and couldn't speak my mind without hearing the same cookie-cutter answer: Oh, I'm sorry. (I was going through other things at the time) So the Halloween dance came up, and one of my friends still blames me for this now, but I broke up with her. Kam was by my side the entire time, and after it was all said and done, Kam decided to break up with her gf. She said it was because she always needed the attention that couldn't be given. Earlier that day, we all agreed to do the Pocky challenge for fun, and if you don't know what that is, basically it's where someone puts a stick of pocky in their mouth and someone else bites off of it, basically trying to get people to kiss. Kam had the Pocky in her mouth, and it was my turn. I felt my stomach tighten as I felt our lips barely touch. I was red, she was red, and my best friend was squealing. A few days later we had open gym, so I was just talking to Kam and Parker, one of our close friends. Then truths started spilling out left and right. Kam found out I broke up with Chey because I loved her, and Kam broke up with her girlfriend because of the same reason. And then again, a day after, we were at lunch and Kam and I were doing a paper roleplay because she had her notebook with her. My best friend looked at me and mouthed: DO IT. She was referring to the fact Parker suggested I ask Kam to be my girl/boyfriend. I was getting words of encouragement from my friends as Kam was becoming more and more confused. I ended up writing the question down on her notebook. I watched her eyes light up and her face turn red. She scribbled something down and handed the notebook back to me which now had hearts all over the page and one giant: YES! Boo <3 Things finally felt good. We exchanged gifts, one of which was me giving her my sweatshirt. I'm wearing this sweatshirt rn lol A few weeks later, I wasn't terribly hungry at lunch. I wasn't trying to not eat on purpose, but I just had no appetite. Kam insisted I eat something, so she gave me a pack of Cheetos, which I thanked her for. Then once I saw my other best friend, Ally, sit down, I saw they had churros. It was already too late to get back in line, but I said: Darn, I wish I got some churros. Ally gave me her churro, and I gobbled it up gratefully. Then I ate the Cheetos in science, where I didn't see Kam. She had English in 6th period. After class, we were in the multipurpose room waiting for the buses, but Kam refused to look at me, or acknowledge I was there. This was on a Friday, and on Saturday I needed to talk to her for a reason I won't go into, but she wouldn't return my calls. On Monday, I found out from Parker she was mad at me because I didn't eat the Cheetos (which I did, she just didn't know) but ate Ally's churro, basically concluding I was ungrateful for everything she does. He thought it was stupid. I told my friends. Four more people thought it was stupid. I told AJ and Bella, who hate each other, but agreed together that this was indeed, stupid. Lunch on Monday, Kam left our table, and I couldn't help it, but I cried into my friend's hoodie. I literally never cry. Tuesday arrives and I try to talk to Kam, explaining I do appreciate her and I love her so so much. Before I can finish, she insists "IT'S FINE" and rushes off. Clearly, it wasn't fine, because I sat down to wait for the buses with Ally, Chey, and Bella, AJ watching from afar, and Kam comes up to me and throws my sweatshirt I gave her in my face, then stomps away. I stare at it in my hands and I'm muttering: I'm so stupid, this just sucks, etc. Tears start falling from my eyes as AJ, Bella, Ally and Chey were attempted to comfort me. Some people turned and stared, as if I wasn't already embarrassed enough. Now here we are..
If you've read this far, thank you. It's apreciated^^ As of finishing this description, I've already fallen for someone else ;--; Oh, and so has Kam. What'd I say? If Kam ever finds herself reading this, I wish you'd talk to me again instead of just daring me to hold a wholesome cinnamon roll's hand.. Anyways, after this whole thing is said and done, I feel like the two years of my life finally got closure. Deep down I knew a relationship with Kam wouldn't last long, and a few of our friends said something along the lines of: She's a player, and you did nothing wrong. WELL, OF COURSE, I DID SOMETHING WRONG! (Cough) iateachurro (Cough) anyway, at this point I'm just getting sarcastic, but thanks again, and enjoy the rest of your day/night :)
