My Story about being a Pansexual Non-Binary

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When I was in my first Elementary school, I only liked boys. Aidan, specifically. I liked so many people in those first 3 years, it was bad. Then I moved away and met Lauren and Meryl in 4th grade. I didn't like Meryl as much, but then I found out Meryl liked me as a crush. I panicked, me being as naive as I was, and said, "I have a crush on Savannah." Meryl was sad and I felt terrible and guilty. I eventually began having a crush on Meryl, so we had a sleepover. I cuddled her, and we were perfectly happy. In 5th grade, my feelings for her got stronger. I felt more attracted to her than I had ever felt towards anyone else in my life. We stayed like that for a while, just liking each other (By now she knew I liked her). In 6th grade, I found out what bisexual was. I then realized this was probably the way I was feeling. I remember asking her to be my girlfriend, but she ended up misunderstanding me and saying no. This hurt slightly, but I kept her as my crush for a couple of months longer. Then my life was torn apart. I was moving 850 miles away. On my last day there, Meryl and I hid in the bathroom, and that was questionable... because we talked, and then a bunch of other girls came into the bathroom every now and then and they would talk and we would eavesdrop, and just laugh! We would pretend we were going to the bathroom and make these weird noises and it's just... it was really fun. There was a voice in my head the whole time and it was like, "you need to kiss her. This is your chance." So I literally just decided, "I need to kiss her!" But I was a wimp and I backed out. Basically that was a pretty good day because we just hugged and hung out; we went to lunch together a little while later with her sister and my other friend, Sabryna. That was great, but then in September it was my birthday again and my new school had just started and life was looking good. Then I wanted to go to see Hamilton in San Francisco and that was where I used to live so then I realized, "Wait, Meryl lives there!" So I got to see Meryl and that was great. We don't have feelings for each other anymore, and by that time I was thinking, "Oh, I think I'm demisexual!" If you don't know what that means, it's basically being attracted to someone you are very close to emotionally. Over time, this became less and less apparent. So now, here comes the gender part. about 5 weeks ago, I was doing a pen name generator. My name was: Dylan S. Sky. I stared at that, overwhelmed with a wave of emotion. I am slightly gender dysphoric but currently classify as Non-Binary. I no longer wear bright, flashy, pink clothes. I wear plain, colorless, mostly blue or white clothes. I recently got a much shorter haircut to help me to feel more masculine. I enjoy it but I feel it is too long. I get it cut tomorrow. I also have had 2 girlfriends in 7th grade so far, and enjoy dating girls much more than dating guys. That is my story so far, and I hope you find it inspiring! Like and comment or else demons will eat your toes yum yum yum