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Hullo random people seeing this...just press the green flag. I have something I want to put here in case a certain person sees this, and I mean it'd probably be better if only that certain person saw what im about to write, but, I'm just a person on the internet, what can I do if you choose to keep reading? Anyways, this is to someone who shall be known as Mintstar for privacy reasons. So, it's been a while, hasn't it? About a year since we stopped being friends. I'm not making this as some sort of hate project, because I'm actually rather glad that we cut ties when we did. At first it hurt, because I realized I didn't mean as much as friends to you as I thought I did. But, over this past year since I sent that message that ended up being the last time I'd ever send while still being your friend. We were friends for two years, and losing you hurt at first, I will admit. But over this past year, I've realized that being friends with you wasn't the best for me. It was an unhealthy friendship, borderline toxic friendship if not already a toxic friendship. You might not believe it by me just saying, so I'm going to explain. Ever since I first met you, I thought we could be great friends, and for the most part, we really were. We called each other soul sisters, we made our first warriors OCs, Mintstar and Wolfpelt together and made them sisters, we had a lot of common interests and a lot of things that made us close. However, over time I've realized that despite all the great times we had, I should've noticed the signs that you didn't really care about me all that much, at least towards the end of our friendship, if you ever did at all. Every time you got the slightest bit mad, you would scream and rage and then hang up the phone, and I'd have a searing pain ricochet through my chest area; just guilt. Because I always felt like somehow it was my fault you got mad, and sometimes it was, but it wasn't my fault you chose to hang up and leave; I realize that now. You also even ruined my twelfth birthday, when you took a joke too seriously, and after saying some rather rude things, hung up. After you hung up then, I remember that despite being in the middle of a sleepover with our other friend, who I will refer to as Sunstreak since she's made a warrior cats OC I can refer to her as now, because of that I had gone and went upstairs crying over it, and then days later we had that argument over text. That utterly broke me. That was also the beginning of the end, and sometimes I wish things had ended permanently then, but I needed to experience the pain you caused me so I'd know what signs to look for in a friendship I should walk out of, like I should've done to ours long ago. We did eventually become friends again after that, and the mental pain restarted. Until we ended up not being friends again for a week a few months later when I was listening to music on that one bot and didn't hear you and wasn't looking at the chat, and you assumed that I was ignoring you despite the fact that had you actually cared to remember, you would have realized that I wouldn't just ignore my friends unless there was a very good reason. Then eventually you ghosted me online for a solid month and then pushed me away when I tried to reach you, and I'd finally had enough. I sent that message on google hangouts, the summary of which if you've forgotten, was basically, "okay, you want to not talk to me let's just take a break." So, in other terms, I've made peace with it all, I'm doing significantly better and even MY anger issues are getting easier and easier to manage, so sometimes I wonder if maybe our friendship was like a final boss in the mostly mental battle I've been in for as long as I can remember. So, in the end, I guess what I'm trying to say is that while I'm not really willing to give you another chance at being my friend, though I doubt you'd want to anyway, I have come to terms with it all and I don't hate you, none of this is intended to send you hate. I only want to inform you of my perspective, if you're even reading this. Though, I don't even know if you still use Scratch and I haven't ever tried to contact you after that day. So, I don't know if you're seeing this at all. But if you are, I guess just take some quotes I came up with for Wolfpelt "Sometimes, it's not the scars covering our pelt that really matters. Words can be as sharp as claws and teeth, and do just as much damage. They can tear you apart from the inside out, and usually leave scars. Even if you can't see these scars, that doesn't mean they aren't there." "We all experience different situations in life, that can make or break us. But it's not the situations we experience that defines us. What defines us, who we are, is how we respond to such situations, because our response to everything shows who we are and what we stand for." -Wolfpelt