Hello, I'm Charlie, or Vampire, as we all know and love. (As a friend). As some of you might know, I've been struggling with my emotions and hard breakup a couple of days ago. So, I've been getting on and off on Scratch for quite sometime now and always thinking up of excuses to not responding to roleplays. Now at times I do wish life wouldn't have to give me the hardest luck, but kiddos, don't worry, if you're struggling a lot, it's alright, we all are not alone in some cases. If you're wondering; yes, my ex is still my best friend, and well, that's a commitment. He agreed that we may not be the best lovers, but we're still the bestest of friends. (Although, I sometimes let my emotions get to me and beg for him back when I know darn well he wouldn't break his own promise) Of course, not every relationship had to end all terribly, and well, this is my chance to at least fix some parts and not completely ignore him, (But if it was for a different reason then you have the right to stop talking to them completely, but that wasn't in my case) I shouldn't make this an entire thing about relationships, but I'd thought to update you on what's been going on recently. First hand, I've been getting a lot of assistance from my school counselor and math teacher, and they've given me excellent advice, one even gave me a water bottle and the other gave me candy. And speaking of school, ever since the issue had happened, I've been slacking a lot recently and well, it's a new marking period, and I earned my very first honor roll last marking period, which was a huge surprise. (I still wonder when in the world they're going to give out the report cards and give me my certificate) My mom has been asking me to get a job recently to get my own car, or new phone since I lost mine due to my stuff being deleted completely, but I don't know if I'm still... ready to do that. I just turned 17 and currently in my Junior year of high school. But I have been doing research and maybe plan on working during the summer time at least. My friends in real life that are also friends with him, has also been helping me get through it and has cheered me up, sometimes even the ex would help me move on. As of right now, I shed a couple of tears now and then, but I try to do things to get my mind off of the fact that I should focus on what makes me happy instead of worrying about someone else' happiness. (As that's what happened during that whole time). I have been improving so far, and I've been actually a lot happier now that I kinda don't have to worry about what other people are doing or fear something that's just stupid during the relationship. Speaking of people, I was trying to talk to my mom about what was going on and that maybe one day I should date a girl. (I'm panromantic, meaning I love people in general, not their parts, and I've always dated guys as that's what I grew up with, when I was dating my first one, the time went on, I realized that I was Genderfluid) She let out a scowl at me and told me that women are a lot more complex than men, and I don't know if that signals me that she's being homophobic, or something.) But when she first found out that I was fluid, she literally was saying that I'm not fluid at all and that I'm a girl, but in reality, I feel a lot more manly, but who am I to say anything as it's "wrong" apparently. So, that's all that's been happening in my life, thanks for listening to this project. If you are currently struggling with any problems, we can chat. I don't have the best advice, but I am willing to listen to anything and give as much support as I can. <3 Take care everyone! Be careful!
I just thought to give a little bit of an update on how I'm hanging on. <3