My story is depressing so warning…. I was born into a poor family my mother and father did drugs and still do. Sadly my DNA is very close to my birth mothers so I lie without meaning to and I get addicted easily. I fall in love too much and I really can’t even think straight at times. Anyways I was abused when i was 3 to 6 years old .guns,knives,wips,belts,and boots. I know it sounds fake but This time it is real. I started feeling numb at age 5 and didn’t even smile for the longest time. Almost all of my smiles and laughs were fake. I still have scars and it sucks. People say that it was my fault for not running i would of ran but i couldn’t leave my little sister behind and my mother did nothing to stop it she ran scared and didn’t even yell at her now ex boyfriend my sister was the only one i could have trust for 8 years i
always looked behind me and moved in front of her if she had to go thru pain i wanted her to live a life with no scars. Until Jason ( bio mom’s ex) was mad she was thrown into the wall and stayed in the hospital for 5 weeks. I was recently told that my sister was only 20lbs at age 3 and i was 40lbs at age 5. This is why i am and how i act and i'm sorry if I hurt you without me even trying too. My bio mom's last words to me 9 years ago were.. “Tell Them your okay,that means you need to lie…” I’m 13 now and life is still crazy.I’m still sensitive in all ways to my emotions,my thinking and my physical contact with others. I may at times not look okay and I’m not if i do ,but give me time and comfort me so I don’t feel stressed and I usually will tell you. My story now is a lot less depressing so no tears needed to shed here! So when I first went to middle school it was crazy(and still is). Anyways I fell in love with a girl named sophia Gerber I loved her since 4th grade and It Was all fine until. I fell out of it… We had been dating for 2 months at the time and it just wasn’t there. A few weeks past about 3 or 4 and I fell in love with a girl named maddie. The same thing happened, but it got bad. She kept asking to kill herself and stuff like that. It got to me a lot. I started getting addicted to cutting and hitting myself against walls. After that I meant electra. She was so sweet and too good for me...Then regan I didn’t want to hurt her because of me and her parents hated me.Now I’m stuck I love who i'm dating now and i love her best friend and they are both in my hearts I like them both the same.But I love the person I’m dating 99% more...(brayden i didn’t forget about you dude I just didn’t feel like it! ALSO I DON”T LIKE BRAYDEN LIKE THAT! He’s like a little brother to me btw.) I’m going to be 14 this year and it’s crazy. (I’m sorry…. If you find this it’s okay if you hate me…) (I’m pansexual which means i like boys,girls,non bionary and bigender people.)
