I’m fine... (vent)

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Ok... I feel like I need to get this off my shoulders, I’ve already talked about this w/ some school friends, but I genuinely feel like some support from the people I find genuine happiness with. So something recently occurred which genuinely made me really upset, it gave me a drop in self confidence (which I honestly struggle to keep high) and made me feel kinda bad at art, which isn’t something I enjoy a lot. So, my parents are divorced,I have a stepmum and she is honestly so bad, I’m suffering so much with her. In my eyes, she’s verbally abusive, she thinks she’s superior to everyone in my dad’s house and trash talks her work colleagues. Now this is something I deal with every week. She and my dad fight a lot, which really doesn’t help me. So I was working on some art homework and my dad told me to show her what I was doing, so I gave her my art book and she looked at the piece I was working on and said it looked good, then, looked through my art book and found a painting I worked really hard on, by hard I mean, I didn’t eat lunch some days because i worked on it a lot, and her first reaction was a disgusted face, and started talking about how’ve trash it was etc, then went to another page and found another picture I worked hard on, and proceeded to call it bad as well. At that point I was done with it and wanted to finish my homework. And then I started talking to my dad (she’s really nosy) and he told me to tell her about this huge project we’re working on at school, and my god, she was so unhappy unsupportive with what I wanted to do, it made me want to cry. Now a bit about me, in a sensitive person, this means I’m very emotional, I cry over tiny things like someone raising there voice at me, or something not turning out write and I’m also very short-tempered, little things tick me off, tiny noises, lack of personal space etc, another thing I struggle with is my attention span, I can’t focus on long things for an hour or more, especially with background noises, thus making me angry as I can’t focus. What she was saying made me so upset, but I didn’t wanna cry in front of her. Then at school we had to bring something in, which I told my dad to get and he forgot sadly, my stepmum tried to reassure that it’s fine, as there will be people who didn’t get it either, but she’s doesn’t know my class and my class is good at bringing homework in, so I’m here feeling worried about not having anything, and this is what really ticked me off. Thankfully I had finished my art homework and went upstairs to my room to cry, and that’s where’s I am now. Now, it might seem weird to bring this over to scratch, but I did it because, I have formed relationships over, it’s small but these relationships make me very happy, I’m motivated to talk with the people on here because they genuinely make me happy. I like communicating with the people here although most of them don’t come from England (my country), so I’m abusing my sleep schedule to speak with these (now this may seem bad, but I have really bad sleeping problems so it’s not that bad) so I just want a bit of support from the people on scratch as well as irl