Just.. kick back and listen. At school I'm not very popular but I'm "friends" with the "popular girls" (I go to a private school, small community, y'know?) but they constantly spread rumors about me. About how I watch male and male.. *raspberry* (I don't, but I support lgbtq+ as I am in it) and began to say something about you guys. Teacher was in bathroom with us, in the stall. Well, I have bipolar and BPD (Her name's Violet) and I know that's not an excuse, but I walked over and GENTLY covered her mouth and told her to shush, because I didn't want her to get in trouble. Well, later on after gym she and her friend were talking loudly about me. Asked to stop once. Screamed at by her and continues trash-talking about me. I.. hit her with my flannel. FIRST OF ALL, I said I was sorry, accepted the punishment, actually INSISTED on punishment. She proceeded to trash-talk me LOUDER. I lightly "smack" her with the back of my hand. She is a year older than me. She's done WORSE THINGS TO ME and doesn't get in trouble for it. Just because she's a year older. I am more mature than all of the popular girls combined. I could be at least 3 years older than I am. But no, I get long lecture about how I "need to contain my anger" (nobody knows I have BPD other than my "fake" family).. Another one. Kids at my school constantly scream at me about how I "don't have depression". I have very, VERY SEVERE depression. they know that. Three times I've given up isn't enough for you?! They KNOW how bad it is. They've seem the diagnosis. I'm constantly ignored. I've found my voice now. I'm going to say it. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH YOU'RE WONDERFUL WONDERFUL PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF AND YOU HAVE ALL HELPED ME ALONG THIS WAY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i love you guys okay byeeeeeeeeee
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ List of my MI (mental illnesses): Anxiety, depression, PTSD, BPD, bipolar disorder, a tic disorder (variation of Tourette's) I've had most of these things since third grade!!
