i could've just commented this but i wanted to post something that wasn't an art dump at least something cool made up for this
i don't feel like doing digital art anymore. It either looks bad or it's just ignored. Doesn't really matter, I don't put much effort anyways, i don't do any sketches to get the idea of what it would or should look like, I don't use any fancy tricks to make my art look better, i just go for it, because i thought it would look good, but i never really think what others would think about it. I kind of want to give up on animation, but it's too amazing to give up on. Along with the topic of giving up on things, i feel like giving up on Scratch and some other animation app, because it gets boring, or i get jealous of what others can do and i get angry at myself for that, like why should i get jealous anyways, i have something unique, but what makes me unique is what mainly defines me as a person in social media, so i try other things, like play an instrument but it never works out. Im always stuck in the in-between of things. Im always stuck complaining about how no matter how much effort i put into projects, like the map parts or some projects i made myself, it just ignored while some person who didn't put much effort into a project some how rises to the top. Im always stuck complaining about myself, because i'm never satisfied with myself. Im always stuck harming myself, because of my curiosity, constantly peeking into things that I regret, like how i saw something that is horrific and lived those days as if it were my last, counting down the seconds to when i die, but in the end, I JUST WASTED MY TIME ABOUT SOMETHING THAT DIDN'T EVEN HAPPEN.
