My brain hurts from being alive You finally did it You broke my mind My personality is built from the happy pills and a fear of being judged I'm tired of everything My eyes are sore from the lack of sleep My stomach hurts from all the stress I feel like I'm going to throw up I'm a horrible person who does awful things I know that I'm loved but why do I feel so alone This week I got called "mentally deranged" snd "sick in the head" by some kid Even if their words were empty threats it still.. Hurt. I've punched and swore my way out of lots of problems But there's a point where violence doesn't get any problems solved Anger is my first response And it always will be until I'm eventually medicated on that too. Adults seem to think that pumping medicine in my brain will make me a decent human being Sometimes they're right I want to be honest but it's hard lmao I want to feel like an actual person again
