.~~. going on hiatus! .~~. sorry guys, but i’ll be on hiatus for a few days. i just need some time to breathe and relax. my anxiety~ my therapist has given me some ways to cope with my anxiety. my meds have been changed a bit, and if nothing changes in a few weeks, then i have to start taking anxiety meds. im trying to get over my (small) emetophobia (which im sorta struggling with? but i dunno). i have to head back to school in a few weeks to give back books to my library and it’s freaking me out. i get calm, but its so struggling to stay in my relaxed state. my meds are only for depression, so it doesn’t help my anxiety. im not getting outside enough which doesn’t help my mental health either. my anxiety attacks are slow and subtle. they don’t hit me like panic attacks would. kinda like a warning before i freak out. my depression~ my depression is slowly getting worse. im starting to take everything literally again which makes me feel horrible. im always feeling upset and scared that im mot good enough. its not that horrible, but im just seeing an increase in my depression. my feuds online~ me and one of my closest friends on here are in a big fight. im not going into much detail, but i just need a break from them to calm down. one of my irl friends is making me angry. -we aren’t at the age of.. ‘dating’. kids our age pretend like they’re dating, but aren’t actually together- anyway. she gets angry at boys our age for ‘making fun of women’s bodies’. boy’s our age don’t care about what we look like. they’re just trying to live out their childhood. she also gets angry at her friends that are dating rn and says theyre too young. then the next day, she rants about how shes lonely and single and boys dont want to date us because they only care about fortnite. sorry but i just need time off. ~~~~~~~ so i’ll be gone from the 22-25. i hope you guys understand. sincerely, me
just so you know, im posting this today so it gets out tomorrow, but i’ll be gone on friday.
