Press play to watch the animation. That's it! Sorry there's no music, I just wanted to try out something quick and simple.
Probably most of you don't really know me, but that's fine. Either way, I hope y'all enjoy the animation! It's a little melodramatic, but I wanted to do something a little extra. And honestly, it was a lot of fun! ------------------------------------------------------------------------- I originally made this June 5th last year, and it's just been sitting in my drafts. Even after all these years, I keep coming back to this account, even just to look at. I've been around in internet circles, constantly looking for people and places to belong, but I don't think I've ever quite found a place like Scratch ever since. From when I was introduced to the program in middle school, and long after I had abandoned and then returned to this account, Scratch has always held a special place in my heart. This summer I'm saying goodbye to a lot of things. I'm letting go of a bad relationship. I'm learning to let go of my dream of becoming what I used to think was a perfect person. I'm finally saying goodbye to my childhood, and those years where I always believed I would always be alone. That that was just how it was meant to be. A lot of it was me being scared to being rejected. This account was really embarrassing for me for a long time. Even back then, I'd hide it from my parents or avoid it in conversations. I loved what I did here so much, I think I was afraid of how much I enjoyed it. That, coupled with me being hyperaware that "all things must come to an end" made me push away a lot of good people and experiences. That will always be my biggest regret. I've always pushed away my own art. Even now it's come to the degree where I'm too busy doing other things to even engage in it. But I still think about it, everyday, and I'm at least glad I had the space in indulge in it freely while I still could. Goodbye Scratch. I should have made a proper goodbye a long, long time ago. But, while thinking about all the other goodbyes I'm making this summer, I can't help but feel like maybe everything happens for a reason. I don't think I'll be doing anything more on this website. But this is not the end of my relationship with art. Coming back after all these years and doing this final animation last year helped me remember- I really love this stuff. And even if I get scared to show it, or am embarrassed by it, I just can't stop doing it. Creating is a part of me. So, even though I'm saying goodbye, it's not the end. Not exactly. Thank you for reading! I just wanted to get my thoughts out about my experience here. Maybe it seems a little kitschy, but it meant a lot to me. I hope whoever is out there reading this can learn how to enjoy themselves too, online as well as offline! It's definitely been a struggle for me, but I think in the long run I'm glad that I figured that out early enough to still have a long, fun life ahead of me. :)
