well this is the case: I'm sad, I don't have depression or anything like that but I'm very sad. You see, I was working 2 weeks on my UFMN 2 game But I had to cancel it ... why? well many things but I want to explain the reasons why I feel sad ... -Stress: I felt stressed when making this game. Correct the bugs, Make the A.Is, and get updates from time to time so that the game does not die. But it is not only for that. You see, I have school work that is sent to me every week and it is difficult for me to consent, the tasks are very difficult and it is difficult for me to focus on studying when I know that I have to update a game. --Nerves: This is something not very worrying, but it still bothers me. They are already sending me school exams and I get very nervous when I have to do them. I have no patience when studying and I find it difficult to find a quiet place to study because I am very easily distracted. I get so nervous about these things, so much so that I even doubt myself. -Fear: I am afraid of many things .... but one thing I always fear is losing friendship with someone. Lately in "Dis" there are many fights ... so many that even produce more stress. I am afraid to start a fight unintentionally or fight someone because ... I don't want to lose any friend. It is for one of those reasons that I am always afraid to give my opinion or to be wrong about something they tell me to do. Because I feel like if I make just one mistake, they'll be mad at me and ... well, I think they already know. Mistrust: Sometimes I feel distrust, but not of someone, of me. I feel that the things I do or will do will be bad and can harm someone. I know there are people who, for example, don't care about my work and I respect that. But .... That there are people who do not appreciate what I am trying to do ... that only generates more mistrust. I really don't know what to do anymore, I want to continue doing what I like but ... how can I do it if I feel that the world is going to fall on me? I have a lot of things that go wrong and I don't know what to do. in fact, I always have to pretend I'm okay. my smile, my memes, and my projects are just things that distract me from bad things. But even with all that ... I always make a "fake smile" Since when do I feel all this? well ..... since last year. I'm not saying I was pretending all year, but when I felt bad or something bothered me, I always pretended to be fine. I don't have depression, but I'm not okay either. you know I am very happy that many of the people I met on this page are still with me to this day and I am very happy about that ... I wish I had told them everything I felt before but ... as always, I am shy. Well, it feels good to take this weight off me, but I have to think about what's wrong with me ... But I'm glad to know that I have many friends who care about me. I don't know what else to say so, bye. I will see you soon.
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