Stop please...

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So if y’all didn’t know, I’m Pansexual. I recently came out to the scratch community and even more recently came out to a couple of my irl friends, although I’ve known for around 3 months. So I’m new to the community, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t been bullied and looked down upon. This is going to be a rant about *many* things, mainly about homophobia and my experience with it. 1.) What is homophobia? -Homophobia is holding a prejudice towards people of lgbtq, along with hate, fear, uncomfortableness, disgust, unsupport, and other things like those. And no, you can’t not support lgbtq along with not being homophobic. There’s no in-between for homophobia and lgbtq supporter/in community 2.) Support -Sorry, but you can’t not support us but at the same time respecting us. Support is respect, and without one, you can’t have the other. No matter how polite you are about it, you still are homophobic whether you like it or not... we also are not “forcing” you to respect us. Though we sure as heck might one day if you still won’t accept us for who we are. We are not forcing, we are just *trying* to get you to support us and to see our side of the story. We go through people saying how they hate us and don’t support us every day, so please don’t make our lives even harder by saying we do. I also don’t get why you think you can not support us and not be homophobic. You can’t not support people of color and not be racist. You can’t not support women and not be sexist. So why is it different for us? 3.) Religion -Oh, how I am *tired* of people using religion as an excuse. No religion practices every single ceremony, tradition that’s in their holy books/papers/texts, so why are you enforcing this one? What makes this one *so* much more important than the others? And this is coming from a Christian. 4.) Homophobes on scratch -I’ve encountered a lot of homophobes, especially recently. Lots of them here talk about either that I’m going to h*ll, or that they “respect” but just don’t support me. Scratch says everyone is welcome, so being homophobic, racist, sexist, or anything else like that shouldn't be an exit ticket out of here. You can have our opinions but that doesn’t mean you have to be open about them. That doesn’t mean you have to hurt me. Because that is what you are doing. You are hurting each and everyone of us when you say that you don’t support us, that you hate us, that we should go to h*ll. Enough is enough and I don’t care how “polite” you are about it. 5.) Straight Pride -Just no... like why. I mean you should be proud for being straight, but you don’t need to act like you’re oppressed or victimized. Because you are *not*. Like, at all. Straight pride is the equivalent of boy power and white lives matter. If not than prove it to me. 6.) My feelings -Well this is easy. When you say you don’t support me, when you come on to our sacred studios and talk about how you don’t support us but that doesn’t make you homophobic, when you say we should go to h*ll, when you say you can’t state your opinions without being “attacked”, or when you act like we are attacking you, that chips away my already fragile shield. I might act like I still like you or I might “agree” with you, but that doesn’t mean I am not hurt... that doesn’t mean I am not sad and angry. Because I am. I am hurt so badly... I am angry... and most of all I am sad. I feel like I can’t be who I am. I feel worthless. You say I’m petty if I unfollow you, well fine. I’m petty. But I can’t stand supporting you when you don’t support me. I can’t respect you. I can’t... I just can’t. I don’t know how much more I can take of this... I don’t know how much more hate I can see. This fake smile won’t last much longer. I already have to doge my parents form seeing this account, I already delete my coming out texts so they don’t see. I don’t need any more, I can’t take anymore. People that don’t support us most likely don’t know what it’s like to be oppressed in this way. They probably are oppressed in other ways, but they don’t get it. They don’t get how homophobes pretending not to be homophobes hurts even more than racists openly being racist. I know I will most likely always be oppressed in my lifetime, whether it be for being lgbtq, or being a girl, I’m probably always going to be oppressed... but that doesn’t mean you can oppress me even more. Please stop okay... please stop playing victim and acting like I’m attacking you. And quite frankly don’t we have somewhat of the right to be angry at you? Like get over yourself. I already feel like dirt so stop making me feel more so. I know I am at fault for many things, but so are you. So please let me keep the shield that’s already falling in pieces. Please help me regain the real smile and get rid of my fake one. Please stop hurting us for simply being who we are, for simply embracing things we can’t possibly change.