I know i've only just joined scratch. But already am i feeling very nervous about coming online now. I suffer a bit of Xenophobia sometimes, especially around people i don't know. I don't feel like i want to meet people sometimes, because i think they'll judge me, like what other kids my age do. I like to spend time all by myself and with my family only. I only have ever had 3 friends in all of my school years because of how people see me. I want to develop, be known, be treated good. I look innocent, but i don't feel innocent. I just really wanted to join scratch to be social and get to know others and what they like, see if they like my art, because people who praise me in real life, (apart from family) only praise me because they want me to draw them. I always try to fit in with people, by looking cool. Talking in bad language and not being polite. That's developed for YEARS for me. All i ever wanted to do is be a normal person, who wants to be treated nicely by others, even if they dislike me. People just don't be civil to people. And they always blame their problems on me, because im an easy target. I know some of you, even you roleplayers won't really care.I know, its my problems that are disgusting and not yours. I don't know why im confessing this.
I guess i did the art....
