What do you mean ‘ All my secrets’ you ask? If you’re following me, or have known me for a while, you probably already know this. I really enjoy writing. I have posted a novel in discussion forums. Good luck finding it. The truth is, I won’t be publishing it. I won’t be trying, I won’t be self publishing, I won’t be sharing it. Are used to have my heart set on being a famous writer. Now, I realize it is a silly dream. My novel, called the lies we were told, Is not the best thing I’ve ever written. Sometimes, I see it as a trashy piece of junk. I’m going to finish it as fast as I can and then print it out with blurb and never show it anyone. So, that is some thing I’ve been holding in for a while. If you haven’t noticed, I took away the words ‘writer’ ‘singer’ and ‘artist’ from the about me section in my profile. That’s because I’m not any of those things. Sometimes, I just want to splash of my makeup on my face. Just get all dressed up, go and not social distance, go and do everything. I just want to get out there you know. To do everything there is to do. Any more secrets? Well, a few. i’m feeling strange. So strange, it’s as though I am falling. I also have a secret crush. I’m sure everyone does, but not as strong as this one. We sometimes chat like we are flirting. But it doesn’t seem like we are. And I have a feeling he likes me too. I really wanna be with him. That’s probably how anyone with a crush feels, but I really do like him. Back when I had a broken thumb, I left it across the street at lunch break. He waited for me when I went to get it. He held the door the whole time. And I can’t tell if he would’ve done that for anyone or just me. You’re probably wondering what I meant by ‘it feels like I’m falling‘. Well, this quarantine has affected everybody. But it just feels like… Like… Like I can’t grab on to the ledges near me, I can’t catch myself. It’s just a never ending pit. Never ending. I never knew how painful it could be to fall.
Art by @-Astrophilia- . Custom drawing! Check out their art it’s great!!! Music is ‘my future’ by Billie Eilish.
