Sorry if you don't understand this. Are we still friends? No. Do we still talk? No. Do I regret some things? Yes? Do I hope I have nothing to do with him? Yes. Do I hate him? No. Do I forgive him? Yes. Do I still think he is a good person? Yes. Do I still have a crush on him? No. Was it all stupid? Yes. Did my parents make it worse? They always do. Do I worry that he went through something too? Yes. Have I recovered? Yes. Have I learned? Yes. Should I stop making projects about him? .... Yes. I'm scared for school because I think he'll pretend that nothing ever happened and he'll try to be friends with me again. I don't want him to try hard to please me again just to get nowhere.. Any suggestions on what I should do? If anything I hope he apologizes. And of course I forgive him and I moved on but I know there will still be that aching feeling of dread and shame when we interact (Honestly I think he feels the same...). Just... I hope that he's ok now. That's all.
