Vent: 5 The blue bruises are bad The darker blue are worse... I crashed with a fast car, I found myself in a dark place, my father never lets me be myself sometimes, he hits me with a leather belt, that belt... The belt was made of a creature I never met in person, a creature that was like a tiger, but with the color pallet of a cow, it ran, a white tiger whom ate plants... The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. I can never tell. The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end, What if I’m not good enough, I should have died when I was born, I’m just failing every class, I’m not smart enough, My brain needs to be fixed, I need to be less stupid, I have to die, Am I allowed to sleep? The belt hit me, and hit me, and hit me... I almost lost my thumb in a car door, My backside had too many bruises, I can’t take it anymore, I can never be myself when I study, I just want to end.
I don’t feel like a good person.
