hiii, sorry that I'm having trouble engaging and responding to comments. I'm gonna be totally honest, I haven't been feeling great,, I'm just, kind of bummed out for no real reason. I'm having trouble finding motivation to do anything, and when I do, I don't have time for anything. uhh, if I've been talking to you, like, uhhh, at one response a week, it's nothing against you it's literally me just, not functioning. :') i don't like to vent very much, especially not about these particular feelings, but just,, legit, school has sucked all happiness out of me?? I'm sitting alone in my room, maybe cryin, maybe laying awake, maybe doing homework, and I just become aware of just,,, this absolute lack of feeling. There's just kinda this heavy pit in my chest, and I feel constantly miserable and futile, and useless and I just feel like nothing matters at all anymore, because not only does no-one care, but I don't, and even if I did, there is NOTHING I could do that would give anything meaning. so, just, like, not very good. Nothing's fun for me anymore. I don't find any joy in animation or art, really-- not saying I want to quit or anything, just,, i haven't been having fun with it as of late. This isn't how i normally feel, but I have felt this way before. Generally, I don't feel this way for long- it has persisted a little longer than usual, but I really think I just need to refresh my self. But, y'know, it sucks?? like, I'm already feeling bummed, but on top of that, one of the few things I enjoy suddenly doesn't feel the same at all. :( I just want to feel something, important and good and valuable, but i'm finding it really hard. Anyway, uhh, thanks for your support. I'm going to just,, try to suck it up and fix myself right up, but this is my excuse for my absolute ineptness over the past few months. <3 I really appreciate everyone's support and patience with me. I'll probably try n take this down or something, but it felt good to just get this off my chest, lol, so thanks for viewing. annd, just in case, please don't worry about me, I'm doing well enough, and I think this is just one of my ruts, lol <3 I'll get around to responding to comments as soon as I can!
