ok hi you're here, that's great xD so obviously in addition to the election I've been worrying about whether or not to move and what people would think of me each way, as well as what I would think myself. andd- I think I came to a conclusion. so, as much as I hate the username, the nickname, and everything about the account, I'm not completely done with glittersquad. why? 1) memories, yeah - that's the account where I blew up and stuff, I was fpc there, like - I don't want to give that all up. I can't just throw away 2 years of work in a few seconds. I just can't bring myself to do it. 2) fame. clout. followers. whatever other words you want to use for it. right when I announced temp moving someone (not gonna say who xD) came at me for making a bad choice because fame is really hard to transfer over to a new account. which is true. but do I really care about fame? I know I shouldn't. I know no one should, but everyone does. and as much as I try to think I don't, the social validation is nice. In real life, I'm just one asian kid in a cult of asian kids who all get straight A's, play the piano, are in band / orchestra and all eat together at lunch in a big pack of asians. I'm no one special, doomed to an average asian life as some kind of doctor or lawyer... being famous online makes me feel special in a way, and I don't really want to throw that away. 3) I'm not good enough for this account yet. What? When I made the account, I was imagining it as... well... an anime artist, lol- someone who might have 700-800 followers and is always called underrated, who draws amazingly, makes cute minigames and animatics, wins contests, has a super neat, aesthetic profile while still being unique, and the theme colors for this account would be... maybe a fruity orange, lime, yellow, pink... yes, I can dream about this, but my art skills aren't at a level where I can implement it, you know? I'm hoping that when I'm good enough I'll be able to be proud of everything I make on this account. so for those three reasons, and some other more minor ones, I've decided. I'll be staying on @-glittersquad- for the rest of this school year, which would be through maybe may or june or so. I might be slightly inactive at the end of the year because finals exist... lol. I'll keep doing most of the same things - hating on myself as always, trying to draw decently, making animation / story thingies, being overrated, and so on. when I get back in the summer, I'll start to transfer stuff over to . I'll make a /big/ attempt to throw away my self-hating habits. I'll start fresh. and maybe I won't be very popular on this account, but by then, I will have trained myself not to care. maybe I'll have to throw away all the memories, but I'm sure there will be tons of new memories on this account. and by then I hope my art will be at the quality it needs to be to make this account how I want it. that's it. wow, I managed not to use a single "xD" in this - wow, that gives me such a mature vibe lol - (edit I just looked back and there were two but shhhh don't noticeee) anyways, thanks for listening to me rant about my life and I'll see you on ! :)
