I feel like there’s something wrong with me... I’ve been going through so much.. my anxiety’s been messing me up.. I feel like I’ve lost almost everyone.. and I have.. I’m scared.. wait let me rephrase that.. I’m terrified.. barely anyone’s ever there for me.. my life has always been kinda messed up.. but never this bad.. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore.. for me to make it this far without going insane is great.. but I don’t know how much longer I can take it... everything’s messed up.. why did this have to happen to me?.. I cry myself to sleep most nights hoping everything’s gonna be alright.. but it never is.. I’ve been lying to myself constantly saying it’s gonna be alright.. but I know it’s not.. it might never be alright.. did I do something wrong?.. I still don’t know what I did to deserve this.. I’m not that bad.. who am I kidding I’m a mess.. what did I do to deserve this!? I’ve done nothing!.. I’ve always been the one to do everything! I’ve always been the one to do all the work! I do everything for everything for everything! I’ve always been there for everyone I love! And what do I get in return!? Backstabbed, forgotten, lied to, treated like nothing! I’m sick and tired of it! What am I supposed to do?! I’m terrified to do anything at all! It’s not normal to feel like this.. I need help.. badly.. I feel like I’m losing it..
